As I grow older, I see the truth of something my grandmother said to me about time when I was a teen, "The older you get, the faster it goes." I don't remember if I was sharing impatience with being my age, wanting to be moving up to adulthood now, or if it was just a general conversation about life, hers and mine, but here I am in my mid-60s and whoa, does time ever fly by.
I've been feeling a little restless lately. I've never been so aware of time and aging until this year. I have Medicare to thank for this due to all the nags I've received from them for the last six months: "Look how old you are! You need to sign up now!" I think about Mom, who died at 71 from lung cancer; she lived just six years past my current age. On the other hand, my grandmother lived to nearly 104, as sharp and quick-witted as she was in her 20s. Time slowed down for her as her world compressed into her independent living apartment, away from her lifelong garden, away from real independence, with no remaining family except me.
So I'm thinking about time, how much of it I may or may not have, and what it might look like.
In response, I'm starting something new to help me be more deliberate about my time. I read The Artist's Way a few years ago and felt a strong connection to the idea that daily creativity matters, but I just kind of left it there. Recently I found the companion volume, The Artist's Date Book, in which I'm invited to practice mindfulness on a daily basis through creativity. My pattern with most disciplines is to start strong and then just piddle out after a few weeks but I think this one might actually stick. I'm going to use this blog for the daily Morning Pages.
Morning Pages are supposed to be private but I doubt that anybody reads this blog now that the purpose for it has passed - I started it as a participant in our library's Library 2.0 initiative. It will be a brief daily practice, the "work" side of my year-long participation. I'll include humor because humor is a big deal for me and I want to examine how it informs my day. If I create something on an Artist Date, I might post a photo. We'll see how this goes.
Day One: "No matter what life path you are on, it is never to late to work on your creativity." This blog post is my Morning Page.
Overheard on Twitter: 76% of librarians quietly sing the alphabet song to themselves when shelving. @fakelibrarystatics (confession: I always say at least five letters of it while sorting and shelving fiction.)
See you tomorrow.